Fun Saturday, Sad Saturnight

Had the best day today with my girl Jen! We walked, shopped, ate lunch & saw, "What to Expect When You're Expecting". Soooo cute and a great Atlanta movie! We saw a store in the movie, that we had been in earlier in the day! Awesome representing! Soooo... It's the Saturnight, that's hard tonight. Almost feeling down & out, & desperate to be honest. Not desperate for anything, just lonely in a way I guess. I miss talking to someone on the way home. I always called him driving home. I miss that. And of course I saw pictures of him on FB tonight, from a race earlier today. It's just that hard time I guess. I could really use a Magic Mike right now to cheer me up :D and he's gotta wear a bow tie & dance! I feel sometimes like asking myself, who am I kidding? Sometimes I feel so confident, but really? Should I? I have no sense of myself sometimes, if that makes any sense. I realize I'm not as small as other girls & not every guy I think is attractive, will think that I'm attractive. Meh. Clearly it's a pity party for me tonight. I know it'll get better & better nights are ahead of me. We can't always have things, right when WE want them. It's truly not all about guys either. (I have to remind myself of that a lot lately) I do need to keep my God at #1 and everything else will fall into place.